That's all I have to say about that.
Friday, March 6, 2015
Tuesday, March 3, 2015
Yes it's true!
I know it's been forever since I last posted. About 11 weeks to be exact. I was doing awesome on 21 Day Fix and was super excited to get great results. Well, after 1 week into the program, low and behold, a positive pregnancy test!
To back track a little, we never could to say we were "done" having kids. We just weren't ready for that finality. A few months before Christmas we started talking about it. Ok, "I" started talking about it and of course, talked it to death. We decided we would give it a try at the end of the year and see what happens. We love having 3 kids, but felt like our family wasn't quite complete yet.
It worked and I knew it. I felt all the symptoms imaginable, but didn't want to believe it bc it happened so quickly, and thought maybe I was just trying to think myself into it. John knew something wasn't right either because my workouts were severely lacking, ok they downright SUCKED! I was so tired, and felt gingerly in my movement. I took a few tests and all negative, but I FELT pregnant. I took another test on the day I was supposed to have my cycle (like everyone says you should) and finally a confirmation of all I had been feeling.
So fast forward a week and we hit a major bump in the road. Bleeding and Cramping. Not something I wanted to see. I've never miscarried before, but I felt this surely it was not a viable pregnancy. We went into my doctor at 5 weeks and discovered through internal ultrasound (oh so fun), a blood clot separate yet attached to baby sac. No bigger then the end of my pinky. That was the culprit. I was scared and wanting answers but really were given none because of how early it was. My options were, 1) You will pass the clot without the baby. 2) You will pass the clot with the baby. 3) Clot is coming out one way or another.
I gave blood that day, on Thursday, and again on Saturday. I called all weekend to see if results were in, but of course not. So Monday I call and find out that my numbers had gone up, but not doubled. My doctor said that they should've doubled and will most likely miscarry. BUT, to come in later that week to talk about my "options". We all know what that means.
That was hard. I was crushed, and the waiting of when my body would decide to pass this little one was making me crazy and scared. Another BUT, I STILL FELT pregnant. I talked to everyone close to me that this had happened to and we figured it was just my hormones playing tricks on me. Another thing also was that I had stopped bleeding. Hmm.
So I go in later that week alone, and see a doctor that I had seen a couple years earlier and we do another ultrasound. My whole ride there, I felt a little hopeful, but as soon as I got there, I was a shaky mess and my doc said, "I know you're anxious, let's just get started". Love her. We see and hear a HEARTBEAT! I burst into tears. I couldn't believe it. I got pics and got sent home with another 1) The clot will pass with the baby 2) The clot will pass without the baby 3) Your body will absorb the clot. Didn't know 3 was an option and am downright Praying for 3!
So overjoyed, yet still nervous, we press on. I go in 2 weeks later (8wks) and hear heartbeat and get pics via regular ultrasound. JOY!!! Clot still there, but Dr is confident my body will absorb it. Her confidence is all I needed and I continue to press on. Next appointment in 4 weeks. Seems like an eternity. I feel very pregnant. The "girls" hurt and are huge, I'm napping everyday, sometimes twice. I am so nauseous on and off all day, I'm eating every hour and I'm craving everything that involves bread and pasta. Needless to say I'm just trying to get thru this first trimester.
For each symptom tho, I'm thankful.
The day before my 12 week appointment, I start bleeding again!!! Heavy and Bad. AHHH! But, no cramping. It was a complete shock since I had been feeling great (pregnant great)! I was terrified and just couldn't believe it. John and I went in, and wouldn't you know it, baby is completely fine. HR is great, cervix is great, placenta is great. It is such an oxymoron to have bleeding, yet see on a screen that everything is fine. It just feels wrong, but we still keep pressing on. A follow up appt a few days later and again all is well.
So we sit here at 13 weeks, with our little 8 cm baby, and 3 cm clot, whom we are now calling "Klotniss Everdeen" because we are big Hunger Game fans (lol), and thinking what happens now? What about my work, my workouts, Beachbody, and Shakeology? First and foremost A LOT OF PRAYER, A LOT. Other than that, Nothing. They will all continue as best I can. I've been told to take it easy, because if I rustle around Klotniss, it could bleed. Is that a bad thing? It's unnerving, for sure, but was told it can not affect the pregnancy.
I spent my last 3 pregnancies eating everything in sight , being inactive, and gaining 50lbs each time. I don't want to do that again. I had a VERY rough time post partum. I want to prove to myself that I can gain a healthy amount of weight and do it with fitness to help me. Don't get me wrong I realize I'm pregnant and these are my "Eating Days"! I will enjoy it believe me! But I will not let myself completely go as I have before and have such a hard time postpartum physically and emotionally. I know I am a little more "high risk" now, but all the more reason I need to take care of myself. It's not about me, I have a family and a little one counting on me. I want to do this the best that I can.
My workout plan during this pregnancy is PiYo, the Pilates Yoga combination that is completely low to no impact and slower fluid movement. I think that will be just what I need to keep me sane, active, and safe.
We would love your support, prayers, and help through this process! I'm hoping to be a positive influence, yet all the while keeping it real. Thank you for sharing in this with us! Much love all!
To back track a little, we never could to say we were "done" having kids. We just weren't ready for that finality. A few months before Christmas we started talking about it. Ok, "I" started talking about it and of course, talked it to death. We decided we would give it a try at the end of the year and see what happens. We love having 3 kids, but felt like our family wasn't quite complete yet.
It worked and I knew it. I felt all the symptoms imaginable, but didn't want to believe it bc it happened so quickly, and thought maybe I was just trying to think myself into it. John knew something wasn't right either because my workouts were severely lacking, ok they downright SUCKED! I was so tired, and felt gingerly in my movement. I took a few tests and all negative, but I FELT pregnant. I took another test on the day I was supposed to have my cycle (like everyone says you should) and finally a confirmation of all I had been feeling.
So fast forward a week and we hit a major bump in the road. Bleeding and Cramping. Not something I wanted to see. I've never miscarried before, but I felt this surely it was not a viable pregnancy. We went into my doctor at 5 weeks and discovered through internal ultrasound (oh so fun), a blood clot separate yet attached to baby sac. No bigger then the end of my pinky. That was the culprit. I was scared and wanting answers but really were given none because of how early it was. My options were, 1) You will pass the clot without the baby. 2) You will pass the clot with the baby. 3) Clot is coming out one way or another.
I gave blood that day, on Thursday, and again on Saturday. I called all weekend to see if results were in, but of course not. So Monday I call and find out that my numbers had gone up, but not doubled. My doctor said that they should've doubled and will most likely miscarry. BUT, to come in later that week to talk about my "options". We all know what that means.
That was hard. I was crushed, and the waiting of when my body would decide to pass this little one was making me crazy and scared. Another BUT, I STILL FELT pregnant. I talked to everyone close to me that this had happened to and we figured it was just my hormones playing tricks on me. Another thing also was that I had stopped bleeding. Hmm.
So I go in later that week alone, and see a doctor that I had seen a couple years earlier and we do another ultrasound. My whole ride there, I felt a little hopeful, but as soon as I got there, I was a shaky mess and my doc said, "I know you're anxious, let's just get started". Love her. We see and hear a HEARTBEAT! I burst into tears. I couldn't believe it. I got pics and got sent home with another 1) The clot will pass with the baby 2) The clot will pass without the baby 3) Your body will absorb the clot. Didn't know 3 was an option and am downright Praying for 3!
So overjoyed, yet still nervous, we press on. I go in 2 weeks later (8wks) and hear heartbeat and get pics via regular ultrasound. JOY!!! Clot still there, but Dr is confident my body will absorb it. Her confidence is all I needed and I continue to press on. Next appointment in 4 weeks. Seems like an eternity. I feel very pregnant. The "girls" hurt and are huge, I'm napping everyday, sometimes twice. I am so nauseous on and off all day, I'm eating every hour and I'm craving everything that involves bread and pasta. Needless to say I'm just trying to get thru this first trimester.
For each symptom tho, I'm thankful.
The day before my 12 week appointment, I start bleeding again!!! Heavy and Bad. AHHH! But, no cramping. It was a complete shock since I had been feeling great (pregnant great)! I was terrified and just couldn't believe it. John and I went in, and wouldn't you know it, baby is completely fine. HR is great, cervix is great, placenta is great. It is such an oxymoron to have bleeding, yet see on a screen that everything is fine. It just feels wrong, but we still keep pressing on. A follow up appt a few days later and again all is well.
So we sit here at 13 weeks, with our little 8 cm baby, and 3 cm clot, whom we are now calling "Klotniss Everdeen" because we are big Hunger Game fans (lol), and thinking what happens now? What about my work, my workouts, Beachbody, and Shakeology? First and foremost A LOT OF PRAYER, A LOT. Other than that, Nothing. They will all continue as best I can. I've been told to take it easy, because if I rustle around Klotniss, it could bleed. Is that a bad thing? It's unnerving, for sure, but was told it can not affect the pregnancy.
I spent my last 3 pregnancies eating everything in sight , being inactive, and gaining 50lbs each time. I don't want to do that again. I had a VERY rough time post partum. I want to prove to myself that I can gain a healthy amount of weight and do it with fitness to help me. Don't get me wrong I realize I'm pregnant and these are my "Eating Days"! I will enjoy it believe me! But I will not let myself completely go as I have before and have such a hard time postpartum physically and emotionally. I know I am a little more "high risk" now, but all the more reason I need to take care of myself. It's not about me, I have a family and a little one counting on me. I want to do this the best that I can.
My workout plan during this pregnancy is PiYo, the Pilates Yoga combination that is completely low to no impact and slower fluid movement. I think that will be just what I need to keep me sane, active, and safe.
We would love your support, prayers, and help through this process! I'm hoping to be a positive influence, yet all the while keeping it real. Thank you for sharing in this with us! Much love all!
Thursday, December 18, 2014
21DF, Day 17
I have to admit. I. Am. Struggling.
I've been staying up late and cramming so much into the day I'm wiped out. We both are keeping up with the workouts fine, but the portion control containers are out the door! Ugh... I'm super angry with myself but I am not home and am not planning ahead, plus with staying up late baking cookies it is loserville for me. I'm not eating enough and the calories I am eating are on the fly and not the healthiest. #chocpretzels #peanutblossoms. So. Bad. I only let myself have one, but still, it all adds up.
I don't remember last year being so difficult for me to stay on track. I'm still going to press on, I'm still going to finish as strong as I can.
After this program is 4 weeks until 21 Day Fix Extreme comes out and I'm really excited about that! We are wondering what to do with that 4 weeks, T25? BEAST? Anther round of 21 day fix?
Great one today. Pilates! Man, I think it's my favorite.. my abs were killing me for almost an hour after the workout. Love the burn!
I've been staying up late and cramming so much into the day I'm wiped out. We both are keeping up with the workouts fine, but the portion control containers are out the door! Ugh... I'm super angry with myself but I am not home and am not planning ahead, plus with staying up late baking cookies it is loserville for me. I'm not eating enough and the calories I am eating are on the fly and not the healthiest. #chocpretzels #peanutblossoms. So. Bad. I only let myself have one, but still, it all adds up.
I don't remember last year being so difficult for me to stay on track. I'm still going to press on, I'm still going to finish as strong as I can.
After this program is 4 weeks until 21 Day Fix Extreme comes out and I'm really excited about that! We are wondering what to do with that 4 weeks, T25? BEAST? Anther round of 21 day fix?
Monday, December 15, 2014
21 DF: Day 12 & 13
Whoa, whoa, sorry about that. A little side tracked after the Refresh. Still doing the workouts and had our kids join us on Day 13 for Dirty 30. It was awesome! They didn't hold weights but pretended and had a great 30 min workout. The best part was afterward when John asked if anyone wanted to do a "Bonus Round". Evie shot up with an "I do!" So they did 9 or 10 tap pushups. With great form too! I was so proud of her! You never realize how much they are watching and what they are picking up on. We have been on this journey for over a year now, and I know they watch us and join in a little here and there, but they ARE REALLY PAYING ATTENTION. I've never corrected her form on a pushup, she just knew. Very cool, very enlightening for me, and humbling that I better be doing the correct things for them to mimic.
So this is our last week of the 21 Day Fix! It goes by so fast! I will be super diligent about my diet this week in order to see progress, but I'm happy with where I'm at, so anything else is a bonus. I'm feeling so much better and just more calm and more clear. I think the Refresh had a lot to do with that. I have not started drinking coffee again. I have had sweets, not because I'm craving it, just because it was there and I remembered my old habit. I will not do that again for the rest of the week.
I'm realizing so much how I just eat out of boredom and habit. I am not hungry or having a craving, I just usually have a sweet after dinner, or feel like I should have some of my kids snack because it's right on the table!! That is not thinking, that is not being intentional, it's being a robot. I'm done with that until Christmas. Then we'll see what we do next after Christmas. Hmm.. what do you think we should do?
I'm realizing so much how I just eat out of boredom and habit. I am not hungry or having a craving, I just usually have a sweet after dinner, or feel like I should have some of my kids snack because it's right on the table!! That is not thinking, that is not being intentional, it's being a robot. I'm done with that until Christmas. Then we'll see what we do next after Christmas. Hmm.. what do you think we should do?
Thursday, December 11, 2014
21DF: Day 11
A little surprised! Ok, ok, here's the low down.
Pre 3 Day Refresh: Waist 30.5
AFTER: 29.25
I am not liking putting my weight down these days. I don't want anyone to compare themselves to me, like I would do with other people. You are on your own journey and so am I. We are all different and the numbers are important, but what matters MORE is how you feel about yourself and your health. But, for testing purposes only.
Pre 3 Day Refresh: Weight 125
AFTER: 121
Here are my pics, untouched. I usually try to warm them up a bit so I don't look so pale (yes this Mexican gets pale in the Midwest), but not these so they can be as real as possible. I did workout during the Refresh and I've heard that some don't, so I'm sure that helped my cause. I'm very happy with these results! I am sure if I hadn't cheated a little they would be better but really the point of this Refresh was to get my, ever addiction to sugar, under control. I kept having a little here and a little there causing me to bloat and just feel uncomfortable. Not to mention if you're anything like me, when I have a little here or there, I allow other things to creep in my diet as well, like fried food, fast food, this drink, that extra helping. It ALL ADDS UP! Then that little bite of whatever, turns into 300 extra calories in my day. That's 2100 a week! And, since it takes 3500 cals to burn 1 lb of fat it's no wonder why I am not losing weight even while I'm "working out and eating decent". Right?!!
Diet is key!!!!!!
This was just what I needed to finish out the other half of 21 Day Fix. I need to keep up these good habits learned, and I'm happy to do that. Now, to celebrate our anniversary with crab legs tonight!
I can't tell so much here, except for a bit on my back and ribs, my lines are a little more pronounced.
This is a huge difference! I am really shocked and happy to look more firm. I still have loose skin and will always have that. But I love that it's shaping up a bit more. No tricks here, I took the pic at the same spot, at the same time 3 days apart, and put my waste band in the same spot. For reals.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
21 DF: Day10
Yeahhhh!!!! Today was a steller day for so many reasons. The last day of the 3 Day Refresh, I got to sleep in, I got to do my workout in the afternoon, which is my personal favorite time to workout. We all have one, some can workout at their max in the morning, some mid morning (I do love that time too), but afternoon is perfect for me. It's after lunch, so I'm not hungry or thinking about food. It's during a quite time for a the kids, my knees are warm, my body and mind are just awake. I got to workout at 2pm, perfect!
It was Lower Fix so I needed all the help I could get. I thought I would need to take it easy, and I'm sure if I were working out first thing in the morning I would have had to. But, I felt good, actually great. So good, I went up in all my weights and was dripping sweat in my ears! It was a great workout, but those curtsey lunges will of course get me tomorrow and the next day.
As for the Refresh, I'm feeling so good. I stuck mostly to the plan, but did have a little more hummus, and 1 nibble of chicken that Nathaniel forced me to eat (literally), but that was it! Btw, hummus is so good with red peppers! I drank lots of water and finally hit my quota! It's 9:30 and I could eat, but I'm not hungry. I am slightly bloated, so we'll see what morning brings to my weight, measurements and pics. I don't know if I've dropped any weight, I sort of doubt it. I will say that I'm not craving sugar at all! The thought of creamer or a cookie already upsets my stomach, but the thought of a burger with a lettuce bun, with cheese, onions, and tomatoes, sounds absolutely glorious! I think The Rail restaurant is in my future. Excited to share what tomorrow brings! :)
It was Lower Fix so I needed all the help I could get. I thought I would need to take it easy, and I'm sure if I were working out first thing in the morning I would have had to. But, I felt good, actually great. So good, I went up in all my weights and was dripping sweat in my ears! It was a great workout, but those curtsey lunges will of course get me tomorrow and the next day.
As for the Refresh, I'm feeling so good. I stuck mostly to the plan, but did have a little more hummus, and 1 nibble of chicken that Nathaniel forced me to eat (literally), but that was it! Btw, hummus is so good with red peppers! I drank lots of water and finally hit my quota! It's 9:30 and I could eat, but I'm not hungry. I am slightly bloated, so we'll see what morning brings to my weight, measurements and pics. I don't know if I've dropped any weight, I sort of doubt it. I will say that I'm not craving sugar at all! The thought of creamer or a cookie already upsets my stomach, but the thought of a burger with a lettuce bun, with cheese, onions, and tomatoes, sounds absolutely glorious! I think The Rail restaurant is in my future. Excited to share what tomorrow brings! :)
Grilled zucchini in coconut oil with some onion and garlic powder.
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
21 DF: Day 9
As the day winds down at 8:30 here, I am so very tired. Our workout this morning was Upper Fix and we were out of breath the entire time. I think we are both trying to go harder, plus Trainer Autumn does multi-joint movements thru almost all of it, so it's pretty hard. Plus, who wants to do pushups for 1 whole minute! Twice!
It's done, it's over and day 2 of the Refresh was great until about 5pm.
My day was jam packed full of preschool drop off and pick up and grocery shopping, and Christmas shopping, and online shopping, and pre-k registration, and of course the usual cooking and cleaning. I don't sit down much during the day, as most mom's don't (even as I write this I'm standing). So by the time Evie got off the bus, and dinner was made, and baths were taken and we were getting ready to get out the door to dance class, I started feeling a little weak. Then, a little dizzy, I did eat my snack a little later then yesterday, but I didn't think it would effect me that much. I had made chicken pot pie for John and the kids and had some chicken leftover, so I took about 3 tblspns of cut up chicken and ate it. I don't know if this was just plain old mental weakness or my body saying, hey, you need something a little more substantial to get us thru the day. Either way, I have not stuck completely to the program, and I want to be honest with you because this is real life and I am not perfect. I actually went to the couch and closed my eyes, instantly falling asleep for 15 mins. I woke up felt fine and we went to dance. Weird right?
As of now, I'm a little hungry and think I'll drink the allotted tea or cup of vegetable broth. So that was day 2. I'm a little nervous about my energy for the workout tomorrow, but will take it slow. I know I can get thru the day fine, but will make sure I keep an eye on eating at the right times. It was a better water day today, so that makes me happy. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Happy Anniversary to us, now it's time to actually hangout with the hubs!
It's done, it's over and day 2 of the Refresh was great until about 5pm.
My day was jam packed full of preschool drop off and pick up and grocery shopping, and Christmas shopping, and online shopping, and pre-k registration, and of course the usual cooking and cleaning. I don't sit down much during the day, as most mom's don't (even as I write this I'm standing). So by the time Evie got off the bus, and dinner was made, and baths were taken and we were getting ready to get out the door to dance class, I started feeling a little weak. Then, a little dizzy, I did eat my snack a little later then yesterday, but I didn't think it would effect me that much. I had made chicken pot pie for John and the kids and had some chicken leftover, so I took about 3 tblspns of cut up chicken and ate it. I don't know if this was just plain old mental weakness or my body saying, hey, you need something a little more substantial to get us thru the day. Either way, I have not stuck completely to the program, and I want to be honest with you because this is real life and I am not perfect. I actually went to the couch and closed my eyes, instantly falling asleep for 15 mins. I woke up felt fine and we went to dance. Weird right?
As of now, I'm a little hungry and think I'll drink the allotted tea or cup of vegetable broth. So that was day 2. I'm a little nervous about my energy for the workout tomorrow, but will take it slow. I know I can get thru the day fine, but will make sure I keep an eye on eating at the right times. It was a better water day today, so that makes me happy. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Happy Anniversary to us, now it's time to actually hangout with the hubs!
Great workout as per usual.
1.5 tsps Almond butter with 2 stalks celery.
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